LOLS. Today is Math and Lit exam. Maths quite easy and Lit still okay.
During recess me and GuangRong play soccer(with a whiteboard duster). Then we slide here slide there - but somehow i think me and my best friends are drifting apart.
The problem lies with me. I don't know why, but it just lies with me.
Because of a stupid game called "MapleStory", it ruined my whole friendship. Last time, I was greedy and I hacked Shafiq's account. Then, someone told him, and we separated. I used a clever method, by giving Shafiq good things if he played Aquila. And he befriended me again. Then I did something wrong again. In the 62 double-decked bus after school I asked WeiPng to move in the seat as the whole bus was packed. He didn't want to, and i forced him by sitting on him. At that time, i was so foolish that I did something wrong and i was not aware of it. They all went down to the lower deck, ignoring me.Then I went home. I didn't realise that they no longer befriended me because of what I did to WeiPng. This time, it was for real. No more bribes, no more explanations. Until now, they still treat me as a transparent person.
For the second time, JunXiong told me his account and password because he said he was no longer interested in Maple. Again because of my greediness, our friendship sunk.
Never did i know that they ignored me, and never wanting to be in contact with me. Not replying my SMSes and calls. Today, for example. I forgot to bring my tie. I asked JunXiong and GuangRong whether they had an extra to lend to me. They said no. So, out of desperation, I asked the whole class and everyone i knew. No one had any extras. Then Alfred came, forgotting to bring his tie. Immediately, JunXiong and GuangRong ran up to him and asked him whether he wanted to rent their ties for an amount of money. They purposely brought extras to lend it to him. And he said he didn't have any extras. He obviously lied to me. Again, i understood why. I really don't learn from my mistakes. I learned it now, but it's all just too late. Nothing will ever be the same. Never. I just hate the word "Greed" or "Greediness" or "Greedy". It's an insult to me even though it was not said or referred to me. I just can't forgive myself. The ones that trusted me will never trust me again. Now I have no best friends or best buddies. The friends that I have currently have now or will sometimes betray me and will never be the best that i wished for. I really hope for forgiveness, and I will forever treasure this friendship even though you don't forgive me. I can understand.
Today was terrible in tuition. Mr Lim went bonkers. First we had some fun and laughter between discussions. Then he became serious. The bad part is when Vanessa went out of the classroom to answer a call. Mr Lim then said we were only allowed to receive calls from our parents. If it's our friends we were supposed to reject their calls. And he locked Vanessa outside the classroom. After a few minutes he went out and scolded her. Then he kept scolding us. We were so silent that we could hear a pin drop. Then I don't know why they kept saying about Bank and Vanessa. Then after tuiton saw Bank outside the tuition centre.(playing yu-gi-oh) Omg. I tell you, Bank can really open a shop to sell cards. He has a whole big album of cards. At his house, there's more. Then Bank asked me for Vanessa's hp no. I smsed her, asking her for the permission. She said can. But when I asked Bank whether he wants her no. , he said never mind. Are Thai people like that? Lol. Then went home to eat my homecooked dinner prepared by me, CHICKEN RICE!!
And i swallowed my rice before chewing, as my stomach was empty. Now, feeling sorry for myself as I am typing this blog, and playing GunZ later. I have so far proven to quit Maple.
Then again, good night and good luck for your exams! Gambateh!(JiaYous!)
